Paradox

 This is the continuation of Awakening, it will be a bit confusing and complicated as it will involves a lot of theories. I will call it Paradox as it will explain the Time Paradox theories which are related to my dreams, as I still confuse about whether they are memories of the past or prediction of the future. There are also a possibilities of alternate universes as some of them doesn't really seem to be related to each other and even show the obvious different between the time and space involved.

It is based on the fact that I could not have imagine or dream about anything that I had not encounter, so there are a few doubts which led me to believe it could only be either memories of the past or prediction of the future. I would rather like to believe that they are prediction of the future more than memories of the past as there might be a possibility to change it, but as what they say history always repeat itself so I am not too positive about it.

There are a few doubts that I had not been able to figure out as I had not been able to find any information about it until now, this would mean that they can only be happening in the future more than the past as there will be some record of it. The first one is a office building with aquarium on top, the second one is the hotel resort with theme park at the lobby. The third one is the underwater tunnel that link the South China Sea to Europe, there are many other minor one which I think it is possible but I will also try to list them down as I explain.

Time Paradox is about the possibilities of you making changes in the past which will affect the future, the most famous one is about you killing your grandfather in the past which will cause you to erase your own existence in the future. There are two different dreams which make up most of my future and a minor one which seem to be all by itself, the minor one is about three different countries with Monster, Robot and Tech against each other.

The dream start with me respawning at a common highway and being transported to the Tech camp, we had a mission to attack the Robot base and encounter a counter attack from the Monster and had to retreat. The dream end with me respawning at the highway again after I retreat from a tunnel, and the Monster I encounter had led me to research the Book of Mountain and Sea as a few of them look familiar.

The major dream still revolve around the one I mention in Awakening, I am leading a team of survivors with special abilities to ensure their survival. The other dream is more related to my present knowledge as I am traveling around the world on a ship, I did try to relate the both but the scenarios and environment seem to be very different. The world which I travel around on a ship seem to be with more survivors and more civilization as compare to the Awakening, and the development of the technology seem to be more advance.

The other dream seem to start at a very cold region where we are getting supply and later move to a warmer region near to the equator, and I seem to encounter a few familiar faces in this alternate universe which led me to believe it is different from the one I know in Awakening. I would rather the second dream is the possible future as I am more familiar with it but it is not something that I can decide as there are a lot of indication that the one in Awakening seem to be happening at a much higher possibilities.

The environment in Awakening seem to be very similar to Planet Mars present state which could be memories of the past or the possible future when history repeat itself, and a lot of happening in that dream are more out of my imagination as I do not really have much knowledge about them. The second dream are very similar to the present state with a lot of familiar stuffs, but because there are too many familiar stuffs I am doubtful that it will be related to the future.

There are also other dreams which I am not sure if they are related to either one of the dreams, but there are a lot of things in those dreams that are familiar and could be closely related to both. Let me explain the whole situation in details, there is a Naval Base at the West side of my country which I had done a repair and upgrade for the military ship. I can remember we were driving around in a jeep looking for a shop that sell general goods and also a place to eat our meal, I also remember that the whole duration of the repair and upgrade took 5 long years which make me so familiar of the area.

There is also an academy on the east side which is near to an island which I am familiar of, earth quake activity had cause one of the road near to the mangrove swamp to raise high like a cliff. We had to either climb the cliff or make a detour at the mangrove swamp during our training, it is the same academy which I had got lost trying to go from the library to the canteen. The whole campus is very big with a lot of tall buildings linking each other by sky bridge, and the whole campus extend till it had an entrance near to the town area which we had a mission which we try to track down an enemy force.

We were send to the academy to learn how to use our new abilities and the using of 3D printing technology had make me very sure that it happen in near future, another event which make me confirm that are the frequent earth quakes that happen near to our region which I had never thought possible until the recent news report about the same incident which had happen to our neighboring country. There are also highways that link both the campus and the Naval Base which are very much similar to the one that I encounter in the dream of the three countries at wars, that is why I am not sure how all of them are related to each other and if they are alternate realities that happen in multiple universe at the same location.

Handling Love

If you find yourself in love with someone who does not love you, be gentle with yourself. There is nothing wrong with you. Love just didn't choose to rest in the other person's heart.

If you find someone else in love with you and you don't love her/him, feel honoured that love came and called at your door, but gently refuse the gift you cannot return. Do not take advantage, do not cause pain.

How you deal with love is how you deal with you, and all our hearts feel the same pains and joys, even if our lives and ways are different.

If you fall in love with another, and she falls in love with you, and then love chooses to leave, do not try to reclaim it or to assess blame, let it go. There is a reason and there is a meaning. You will know in time.

Remember that you don't choose love. Love chooses you. All you can really do is accept it for all its mystery when it comes into your life. Feel the way it fills you to overflowing, then reach out and give it away.

Give it back to the person who brought it alive in you.
Give it to others who deem it poor in spirit.
Give it to the world around you in anyway you can.

This is where many lovers go wrong. Having been so long without love, they understand love only as a need. They see their hearts as empty places that will be filled by love, and they begin to look at love as something that flows to them rather than from them.

The first blush of new love is filled to overflowing, but as their love cools, they revert to seeing their love as need. They cease to be someone who generates love and instead become someone who seeks love. They forget that the secret of love is that it is a gift, and that it can be made to grow only by giving it away.

Remember this, and keep it to your heart. Love has its own time, its own seasons, and its own reason for coming and going. You cannot bribe it or coerce it, or reason it into saying. You can only embrace it when it arrives and give it away when it comes to you.

But if it chooses to leave from your heart or from the heart of your lover, there is nothing you can do and there is nothing you should do. Love always has been and always will be a mystery.

Be glad that it came to live for a moment in your life.
Don't deny love just only you don't want to be hurt...

IF YOU KEEP YOUR HEART OPEN, IT WILL COME AGAIN

I've Come To Accept That...

... everybody has dreams, but not everyone is able to realise his/her dreams.
... some people just have everything going for them while the rest can struggle through their whole life and come to nothing.
... the rich will be richer while the poor poorer.
... you may not like what you're doing now, but you just have to continue with it because you have no other choice, and because you do not dare to stray off the "normal" path.
... you may not like the path that you have chosen, but many a time, you can't change it because circumstances do not allow you to change it.
... there are people who have no idea what they are doing but will eventually succeed in life, while those who think they know what they are doing may eventually come up to naught.
... no matter what everyone says otherwise, looks does count to some extent.
... those with pretty faces always seem to have it easier.
... there will never be total equality between the sexes.
... the intensity of our relationships with the people around us change with time and environment.
... the person who was once your best friend may turn out to be a stranger, or worse, your enemy.
... relationships (friends, love, etc) have to be carefully maintained, like your precious car, otherwise they will become all wrecked up before you know it.
... while you may think you have many friends, think again, do you really?
... while you think you know a person really well, the truth may turn out to be otherwise.
... you can never find a person who is 100% truthful to you.
... there are more hypocrites around you than you realise or wish to admit.
... you can choose your friends but you can't choose your family.
... all parents love their children, but to varying degrees for each child. i.e. parents play favouritism, they don't love their children equally.
... one should be satisfied just knowing that one is loved even though one might be loved less than one's sibling(s) because there are orphans out there who have never known a parent's love.
... the world will never be a better place as long as humans are part of it.
... what is seen as progress may actually be a regression of humankind.
... there are more things out there I do not know about, much much more than the things I know.
... there are some things you do that others will think are sheer silliness, but as long as you think they are worth your time and effort, just do it!
... it is very hard to take care of everyone's feelings. Sometimes, no matter how hard you try, the things you do will hurt someone in one way or other.
... the saying "Money is not everything, but without money you have nothing" is very true.
... simply accepting the dire situation you're in makes you a loser.
... trying to change a dire situation does not necessarily make you a winner.
... you just can't rush some things. If it's meant to be yours, you'll get it eventually. If it's not meant to be yours, you'll never find it even if you try hard.
... like it or not, there are some things you just have to let go of.
... constantly looking back and thinking about what you should have done and what you should not have done in the past brings nothing but regrets. The more often you think back, the more regrets you will have.
... we are always taught to look to the future, but thinking about the future inevitably brings up the past and the regrets of past that many are more than willing to forget. Like it or not, we will always be stuck in this vicious circle of thoughts as long as we live.
... even though I hate the way the society works, I still have to live in it no matter what. I can't just go and die, can I?
... trying to solve problems by death is sheer escapism and a totally selfish thing to do. While you might think all your troubles have been solved with your departure from this world, you have given the people around you nothing but more trouble and grief, as though there is not enough to deal with without you adding to it.
... things are always easier said than done.
... there are far too many things out there that you wish to change but can't, so just accept it! That's life!